Fighting people in your head

An unpleasant person appears in my head and I feel bad because I repeatedly fight with that person in my head.
Someone unpleasant always appears in my head and I fight with that person.
I repeatedly think about how I can damage the unpleasant person with words in my head.
I can’t stop thinking about how to make the person guffaw and give in.
And then it escalates and escalates and escalates, and I get scared that if I do this I might be socially finished, but I can’t stop thinking about it.

If you are communicating in your head with someone who is not in front of you, it could be latent chronic inflammation that is causing your peripheral immune cells to become active and your cognitive function to deteriorate.

Inflammation causes peripheral immune cells to become active and cognitive function to decline, causing you to do or say things to the other person in your head that you shouldn’t be doing or saying, because you have lost control.

You are no longer able to recognize the difference between the other person’s position and your own because your cognitive function has declined and agnosia has occurred. It is because of agnosia that you get on the same playing field and fight on equal terms in your mind, even though you are different from your opponent in terms of intellectual ability, power, experience, and so on.
And when you actually see your opponent in front of you, you can’t say anything because of the loss of speech due to cognitive decline.

The reason you can’t stop repeating the experience of fighting in your head, even though you have experienced that fighting in your head means nothing, is because you are experiencing memory loss and will not be able to make use of any of your previous experiences. The reason you keep repeating the same fight in your head with the same opponent is because you have lost the memory of the part of the fight in your head due to cognitive dysfunction that pinpoints it.

The latent chronic inflammation, traumatic stress, that causes peripheral immune cells to become active in the case of the person described above becomes “the annoying child that was born” (as written in the narrative).

When parents are fighting, the child is just used as an blind for the fight, but if the parents think in their mind, “If only I didn’t have this child,” that is properly conveyed to the child, creating the traumatic stress of “annoying child” and becoming a latent chronic inflammation.
When it comes to sexual desire, even parents are animals, and they feel frustrated, almost to the point of killing, because if only they did not have this child, they would be able to live their married life more freely. The child does not understand the sexual desires of adults, so only the “annoying child” remains, and that becomes a traumatic stress.

And when they see a grumpy face, peripheral immune cells become active and attack themselves in response to the inflammation of the “annoying child.”
When the autoimmunity goes out of control, blaming and attacking themselves, the inflammation causes cognitive dysfunction and makes it difficult to stop the war in the head.

Even if the other person becomes grumpy and attacks them, that is his/her problem, but they take responsibility for his/her feelings and fight it out in their head because they have latent chronic inflammation of being an “annoying child” and their autoimmunity is out of control.
And if they actually fight it, not just in their head, the fight will escalate because their autoimmunity will run out of control because of the latent chronic inflammation of being an “annoying child” even more.
The more it escalates, the more peripheral immune cells become more active and the more cognitive function is impaired, so it’s as if the nightmare world has become reality.

So when someone appears in your head and it almost feels like you are going to start fighting, try to realize that your autoimmunity is attacking you as the “annoying child.”

The autoimmunity is just trying to destroy and counteract the inflammation of the traumatic stress of the “annoying child” as an enemy.
When you realize that you were just treating yourself as an enemy, the autoimmune attack subsides.

It is a wonder that when the outburst of autoimmunity subsides, the person who was regarded as an enemy is no longer an enemy.
You may feel lonely because the person you are fighting is no longer in your mind, but in reality, your cognitive function returns to its original state, and you begin to see your potential that you could not see before, and you become freer and freer.

You may realize later that the reason you were feeling trapped and helpless was just that your peripheral immune cells were activated by inflammation and your cognitive function was impaired.

The power of inflammation created by traumatic stress is immense, because some people notice it right away (all written in narrative).