Parents sometimes worry after having a child, “Will this child be bullied when he grows up?” Then, when they see their child crying, they become anxious that their child may be bullied if he is such a crybaby, and they yell at him, “Stop crying!”
As a parent, you feel that if they are a crier, they will be bullied, so you yell at them, thinking that you have to correct them so that they will not be bullied.
The child cries because he wants his parents to understand his feelings, but they don’t, and he is shocked when they yell at him. The child cries because he wants to be understood, but if the parent yells or slaps the child for fear of being bullied, the child will be left with emotional scars as latent inflammation.
Children want to be spoiled by their parents, so they cuddle or are selfish, but when parents see such behavior of their children, they become worried that they will be bullied if they are so spoiled, and they yell at them, “How long are you going to be spoiled!” If it were normal parents, they would feel “cute” or “happy that their child relies on them,” but in this case, the fear of being bullied comes first, so they yell at the child, “It’s not good for her if you spoil her.” Then, the child is shocked by the fact that she was yelled at without having her feelings understood, and the latent inflammation remains intact. This is because the words the parent is yelling at the child are different from what the parent actually thinks, and the child becomes confused.
From that confusion, a latent inflammatory psychological wound of “bullied child” is created.
That latent inflammation activates peripheral immune cells and causes cognitive dysfunction, which causes disorientation, so that the child does not know what it feels like to be “all equals and friends” in a group setting. Then they become nervous and strangely caring toward other children. If they are nervous and oddly caring, their social ranking will become low.
If they have a low social ranking, their autoimmunity will consider the latent inflammation of being a “bullied child” as an enemy and attack it further, lowering their cognitive function, so executive dysfunction will occur so that they can’t do the same things as other children, so they are bullied. Memory impairment occurs, so they forget things more often and are ridiculed and bullied by the children around them. In addition, cognitive decline causes apraxia of conduct, which causes them to say things they shouldn’t say, upsetting others and leading to bullying.
Then, the autoimmunity will attack you as a “bullied child” as it sees you as an enemy even more, and your cognitive function will decline more and more. When this happens, they desperately try to avoid being bullied by playing the role of a serious, methodical, conscientious, and responsible person. This is because it is painful for the autoimmune immune system to attack the latent inflammation, the bullied, as the enemy. So to escape that pain, they become perfectionists, try hard to follow norms and order, and strive to be honest with everyone.
The reason why people who have this “bullied child” latent inflammation may be stiff is to escape the pain caused by the autoimmune attack. If they focus on something, they can avoid feeling that pain.
Being hard on oneself is sometimes evidence that the autoimmunity is attacking the latent inflammation of the “bullied child” as an enemy.
By attacking latent inflammation as an enemy in this way, the inflammation causes peripheral immune cells to become more active, cognitive function to decline, and interest and pleasure to be lost. And they have less energy to do anything and become chronically fatigued. Of course, as cognitive function declines, concentration is impaired and decision-making skills are lacking.
Then one’s self-esteem goes lower and lower, and one becomes stuck in a guilt-ridden state. Unable to sleep, and then they lose control of their weight.
These people just need to realize that when they are alone and the mistakes they have made in the past come to mind, their autoimmunity is attacking the latent inflammation of being a “bullied child”.
When you are in the presence of more than one person, and you start to get nervous or unable to think straight, you can realize that your autoimmunity is out of control and attacking the latent inflammation of “the bullied child”.
When rules and order become a concern, notice that the autoimmunity is getting out of control and attacking the latent inflammation of being “bullied”.
Then, gradually, the inflammation will subside and cognitive functions will return to normal, and you will see the world differently than before.
Everyone has latent inflammation, and their autoimmunity is just out of control! It’s an interesting world. And just by realizing that the autoimmunity is just out of control, you can feel the joy of getting your cognitive functions back to normal (all written in narrative).